Me, Lucy, and Jesus

Me and Lucy had a Jesus chat the other day. I wanted to share it.

We were sitting down for lunch and I had started praying and Lu chimed in with a couple words of her own. I believe they were something like "and thank you for this sandwich and thank you for this water" in between giggles. Whatever, I'll take it. She hasn't been a big fan of praying out loud yet. I told her I liked when she talked to God and He liked hearing from her too. The conversation went something like this.

Lu: You can talk to God in a regular voice. ( Her Storybook Bible talks about how to pray)
Me: You sure can.
Lu: Where is God?
Me: He's everywhere. He lives in your heart.
Lu: He's in mine too.
Me: If you want Him to be in your heart, you have to ask Him and He will fill you up with His love.
Lu: (after thinking about it for a few seconds) I don't want to do that yet.
Me: That's Ok Lu. Someday though, I hope you will.

Its been so interesting watching Lucy grow into her own little person with likes and dislikes and thoughts of her own. As she has grown, Jordan and I have noticed an independence in her. She isn't satisfied with just going along with whatever you say, she has to figure it out on her own. I have always said I'll be glad she has this trait in ten years but at the moment, its not my favorite. Looking at that in terms of her faith, I don't see her being happy to just go with the flow. Jordan says "she won't be drinking the koolaid." I see her digging and figuring it out for herself and making that choice when she's ready and when she's sure. And I'm ok with that. I'm proud of that. I love that.

If I let my mind wander, I start to get nervous. What if she doesn't choose Jesus? Then what? Then I say, relax Kelli. She's 4.

I think about the phrase "faith like a child" and I look at Lu. Even now, she is trying to figure it out and thinking about how it works. My hope is that one day down the road, when she's ready and she's sure, she will take that childlike faith and put it in Jesus. I can't wait. For now though, I'm just excited to know that He's working in her little life and putting things in motion. Using different things and different people to shape who she is. She's going to do great things.